Now I can tune guitar by myself

I do not consider myself musically-talented. To be precise, I am somewhat a slow-learner. And tone deaf too.

Yes, I am telling you the truth.

I have joined classical guitar lessons for more than one-year, but still having difficulties to differentiate two distinctive notes. And this, irritates me so much. I can't even tune my own guitar.

So, I bought this.

It is BOSS's TU-80 Tuner & Metronome. This was the best thing I could have done. It works beautifully. And the metronome, it helps me to control myself from being out-tempo. You know, I always do that too. Sigh.

Anyway, good news for slow learners and tone-deafs out there. These so called disorders are curable! (YAHOO!) We will eventually get better at it, but we just need to learn the right way to do it.

With practises, we can get better! Believe it.

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August 24th

Gana turns twenty-five on August 24th. Dear housemate, so today you added one more year. Now, where are we gonna put that other candle? Lol. I know you are not reading this but I still would like to wish you peace, happiness and good health. Just live life to the fullest! It is kinda cool having a housemate like you. And you, are such a positive force to us. Hehe. Enjoy your day, man!

And to my favorite shopping-karaokeing partner, Miss Kepam, enjoy your big twenty-three. May all the love and kindness that you show others be returned to you not only today on your birthday, but on each and every day. It is an honor to call you my friend!

What the world needs now..

... RESPECT

GOD, I so want to write more, more and more until you people get it. But it is not me. And I still think that talking about feelings NEVER help. Especially, if they are difficult.

Please understand me. Please.

Convergence insufficiency

We were so excited testing each other's eyes. We used Snellen Chart to check the visual acuity. Then we performed swinging-flashlight test to see the pupil function. But just before we finished our that day's skills lab, doctor demonstrated how to assess convergence (eyes coordination). It started with moving an object (for example, a pen) towards nose bridge.

Physiologically, both eyes will be approaching each other, in other words they are sustaining convergence. But mine, and another group-mate have negative results (Huh?). One of my eyes failed to move. Then, the doctor checked for my extraocular muscles condition, using Hirschberg test (she shone a light to my eyes and see the reflection). Thank God, I don't have strabismus (squint-eyed). According to doctor, mine is because accommodation of eyes is very weak. So nothing to worry about.

Hirschberg test in strabismus patient (see the assymetrical white dots)

Chill! It is not serious. I do have blurred vision after prolonged visual fixation (e.g reading) but it last only up to few seconds (there are cases of people who have blurred vision for more than 15 minutes!) . For the record, most of the blurred vision I have are always after having a very long and serious reading. Which is so RARE ha ha!

Now I know when I really really read lecture notes or not.

post-script: I really need an ophthalmologist or whoever knows better than me to correct me and tell me what really happens here. If it happened to be wrong.

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Stammer?

I don't know which one is my real problem. It is either my English is getting worse and worse or I have a stammer. Or, I have both? Or, the stammer is because of the trouble getting out English words (because my English is poor)? I also don't know.

I hate myself. I know I don't have any kind of speech disorders, but being such a big loser. I am scared to speak English. I am scared if people laugh at my pronunciation. I am scared if people gossip with others how suck my English is. I am scared to death to look stupid. See. How loser I am. And let this bad mentality ruin my future. So pathetic. In fact, I am surrounded with friends who give me so much support.

I do not love myself until I do something to improve my English.

And, to fake having stammer just because cannot speak English is so not cool. Remember that.

Kung Fu Flying Torch

Whose idea was that, hoist Li Ning high into the air with cables, carrying Olympic torch and 'running' around the stadium?

Spectacular.

If Always is a 2009 movie, I bet Ted Baker would say the perfect ten ideas are democracy and penicillin and Olympic 2008 torch opening ceremony. Ha ha!

I like the running part. Perfect

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Kick Start

Yes! Yes! Yes!


I finally watched The Dark Knight!

The movie was freaking great and The Joker, what a terrific performance!

What a great way to start my first day of fourth year of medical school. La la la la la

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Once

Beautiful musics are played throughout the movie. Only the heartless do not fall into 'Falling Slowly'. Brilliant!

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What i hate most

I hate the journey. It takes almost half of a day (if you count Terengganu - KL in) to be there. And you, have a hard time of waiting. But deep inside, you are so excited. Feels like your heart pondering outside the ribs.

Which then brings you the second hate.

I hate the excitement. You daydream everything full with colors and magic all the way to the destination. Then you smile to yourself, how big your dream could be. It is full of hopes, people. Hopes that blind your eyes and spoiled decisions. In the end you will hate yourself for hoping too much. Because, there is nothing real in there.

Ni'-mat

chocolate chips walnut cake..
sister's nasi beriyani..
mother's pengat durian..

O Allah, Thanks for all the nikmat.


A simple family celebration of my pirates', Ainur (16th) and Aminah (1st) and Amir (9th) birthday. Belated. What a blast!

(sigh)

I know I screwed up holidays. Spend 5 weeks with doing nothing. And sometimes feel like do not belong to 'the' place. Well, I think I deserve it. Thank God I am going back on Sunday.

But I know, Allah, Most Gracious, Most Merciful, still bless me with good foods. Alhamdulillah.

O food, I am sure going to miss you!