How to feel my life while I'm in it

Rectal touch (not again...)

2009-10-22T17:17:00.001+08:00

Today, David and I were asked to do brief history taking on lower urinary tract symptoms (LUTS) and perform rectal touch to a sixty-year old man. Everything went fine until I started inserting my pointing finger into his anus. The old man suddenly giggled uncontrollably. Crap!

Rectal Touch

2009-10-17T15:38:00.004+08:00

I've had my first-time experience inserting my finger into an adult man's anus in Klaten. It was a very awkward experience I tell you.

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Speaking of Klaten, I've just got back from there after 1 week completing my outside rotation of surgery and I'd say it was my the most productive outside rotation that I've been to so far. :)

Anywise, to all my Hindu friends, I wish you,

A Very Happy Safe and Prosperous Deepavali!

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It's not too late

2009-10-06T17:53:00.005+08:00

Fire-crackers, ketupat waving session, scrumptious doyot's delicacies, colorful traditional costumes for 12hours, laugh-out-loud, favourite people ONLY, non-stop eating, blah blah blah...

Yes peeps, it was a great raya afterall. Sorry for all wrongdoings and,

Happy Eid ul-Fitr!

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the real house

2009-10-05T15:45:00.002+08:00

Department Six : Ready, set, shave!

The main reason that urges me now to set on specializing in dermatology is Pak Widodo, Sp KK (K). He really makes things seem so cool, interesting and sexy!

Anyhow, couldn't say much because exam is still 10 weeks ahead. For the time being, lets keep our fingers crossed!

All the while, my hands are busy with needle and thread.

Department Seven : Department of surgery

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Holy Ramadhan

2009-09-12T20:12:00.005+08:00

My lecturer once said, purpose of sahur is to prepare the energy needed to function for the day and iftar is to bring low blood glucose levels back to normal. If we take less portion of iftar and eat more before dawn, much calories will surely be burnt. Good.

But, looking at my muffin top that keeps getting bigger and bigger, now I know I have practiced it in opposite way.

Happy fasting readers!
A month with full of blessing and rewards.

Enough sedation

2009-09-06T00:58:00.004+08:00

Finally, I've met the super-tiring department - Anesthesiology.

It was insanely tiring I tell you. For everyday, Monday to Saturday, you have to be in meeting room at 0630 sharp and going back just after 4 or 5 pm. Too bad if you were ER on duty and had to assist 2 or 3 operations from midnight till dawn. Urgh. Can you imagine how cranky I am on the next day?

My day? Ruined. My dinner plan with friends? Evaporated.

Well, that depends on your tolerance level. For me, I am very sure, my limit is extreme-low. Anesthesiologist will obliviously not suit me well, even tho the knowledge of this field is so interesting. In fact, your role in operation room is much important than those surgeons. You have to be responsible on what flaws that might happen because of them but if the operation is succeed, just do not dream to be congratulated. You are invisible. Unseen.

All about the 'ABC'

2009-08-17T17:10:00.005+08:00

... in my next rotation.

So, will my next 2 weeks in Anesthesia department be cool as this?

scene from E.R

You wish.

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WoOopp!!

2009-08-15T21:19:00.003+08:00

my holidays are almost over, but I am not done yet. Grrr...

You mean something to me

2009-07-08T20:39:00.002+08:00

I AM A MAJOR WEEPER, I MUST SAY!

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:(
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I do but, I can't help.

Please stay, I am begging you.

Thank you

2009-07-05T21:34:00.004+08:00

A one-year-old patient checked-out from hospital this morning, and just before he left the ward, his parents came to me and said, thank you.

Yes, it wasn't me who did the treatment planning or I.V infusion, it was my senior doctor and nurses. I did nothing actually except checking him up every morning, listening to crackles on his lungs and counting his respiration rate and heart beat. That's all.

But, when they thanked me with all their genuine sincerity, it does feel great.

post-mortem on department three

2009-06-07T16:27:00.005+08:00

Who said no departments is boring to everyone?? Then I'm sure you haven't entered forensic yet.

I was dead bored there and nothing excited me. I had 5 autopsies (if you count the suspected-fetus corpse which turned out to be a placenta in) and the procedures are very monotonous unlike as seen on CSI. Oh, did I tell you, I had way too much tedious homework too?? Okay, I admit, I'm exaggerating a little bit but the only thing had bothered me was the system. Screw you ''signatures''!

However, there are lessons I've learned, for example, all things in this world will wither away and die and life, is full of surprises. Remember people, nothing teaches us about life more than death itself.

my department three members and yes, we are all Malaysians at Yang di-Pertuan Agong's Birthday Celebration.

Anyway, this is my next stop,

Department Four : Pediatrics

I don't know how horrible/exciting my life will be afterward but I am sure sick kids ain't cute.

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Pull over

2009-05-31T02:08:00.005+08:00

... and stop for a hot coffee

I know I know, people would say, I complained a lot. They say, too, housemanship back in Malaysia is far hell! Dur!!

....

O well. what the heck.

Life today is still so hectic and finding time to finish off work is an uphill task. Therefore, I need a break, because I do not want to lose track of time, thereby missing out on important events.

tell me how not to love it

2009-05-08T22:36:00.006+08:00

Department Two:
This is weird. For an average joe like me, neurology is completely intolerable.
But...

I still enjoy it for some unknown reasons. Allahuakbar

OK to judge but don't throw stones

2009-04-20T23:07:00.003+08:00

Dear Kuden,

I don't know why you have to judge people and please, stop calling yourself mr always right.

Thank you.

two weeks

2009-04-19T10:42:00.003+08:00

One of the residents there told me that she took two (2) months just to recognize pleural effusion on a plain photo. Therefore, we must work very hard this time since only 2 weeks are given to us to finish the Radiology department.

New Chapter

2009-04-12T07:40:00.004+08:00

My first department

Tomorrow will be a very big day for me as I'll be starting my clinical year for the next 2 years. Life will be no longer as easy as it used to be. Real people, real cases and real difficulties, these are what I will be facing everyday. I have to learn not to sweat on small stuff anymore (e.g crying when being called the culprit in a friendship)

I have to be a new man. Hmm.. let start with wearing wrist-watch first.

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B-09

2009-04-09T10:57:00.003+08:00

Yennifer, Rogue, Gabriella, Housemate and I.

For the next two years, they are Malaysians that I'll be meeting up the most, especially that sheilagank. *high-five!!*

OSCE II - All praise belongs to God

2009-03-14T13:55:00.002+08:00

Alhamdulillah, I've made it.

Hmm.. Now I see tougher times ahead. Good luck Kuden.

Ma's new toy

2009-03-05T20:53:00.003+08:00

Now I know how Kepam felt when she told me that her Mak just bought a new handphone - which way cooler than hers. Yes Kepam, my Ma just bought a new toy too! It is Nokia XpressMusic 5800, which for people like us who have been using Nokia 1100 for ages, Nokia 5800 is definitely a serious decision, man!

Ma is very excited about that. She just set-up Batman - The Dark Knight's trailer as default ring tone and Mercy from Duffy for message tone (it was me who did the setting actually). Anyway, she still finds it is difficult to handle, and keeps sending people empty messages randomly. She really enjoys the video call very much and always ask me to purposely call her number, so that The Dark Knight trailer will suddenly appear on screen.

Look at the bright side, because now Baba has his own handphone too!! Yes people, it is Ma's Nokia 1100.

While I was outside the room...

2009-03-02T20:44:00.001+08:00

the 5th pirate was enjoying this,

Done

2009-02-26T08:10:00.003+08:00

Everything seemed O.K. Out of 10, I would rate 5. The worst station was Clinical Reasoning station. I should have not written that in that way. Sigh

You know what, the doctors were very nice, they all looked so GOOD. So, if I could not make it this time, it's all my fault, not the doctors. God always has a better plan for me!

Hey, I'm going home tomorrow! Terengganu here I come~

OSCE

2009-02-12T09:47:00.001+08:00

I am having palpitations and breaking out in a cold sweat now. O my God, O my God! Exam is just around the corner.

My constipation has gone, but the bloating is still here.

2009-02-09T09:25:00.005+08:00

Chuck season 2 is way awesome than the first. It has a brand-new twist, cooler actions, crazier Buymoria citizens and Special Agent Carmichael! Watch it people!

Oh yeah, Sarah Walker is a major hottie. Hee

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Don't be shy to go out

2009-02-02T05:50:00.004+08:00

My bowel movement is in its difficult stage. It comes together with abdominal bloating/distension. What a perfect combination! I have tried things to relieve it. I even forced myself to fart, but it turned out to be an awful experience. I drank gallons of water too which caused my urinary system actively working rather than my bowel. Sit-up exercise does not help. Some said banana can help, but some also said it can worsen my constipation. Then, I ate a half comb of banana last night, but nothing, NOTHING happened at all.

My cousin Mimie asked me these

2009-01-26T23:10:00.005+08:00

To be honest, I don't do tags but, please do not misunderstand me. I have nothing against tags or those who enjoy doing it. *Peace!*

7 qualities of my dream girl
1. take care and fulfill her solats
2. crazy - we are crazy about each other
3. she is there to cool me down, when I am mad
4. when I am down, she is there
5. love my parents
6. partner-in-crime
7.

7 crushes
1. Renee Zelwegger
2. Reese Whitterspoon
3. Kate Winslet
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5.
6.
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7 feelings about dating a girl I like
1. conscious
2. scared
3. palpitation
4. asking stupid lame questions
5. euphoria
6.
7.

7 special places to visit with my life partner
1. cineplex
2. cooking class
3. cycling in park
4.
5.
6.
7.

7 special gifts to her
1. an umbrella?
2.
3.
4.
5.
6.
7.

7 songs to be sung to her
1. I Can't Smile Without You - Barry Manilow
2.
3. Jangan Tinggal Daku - P. Ramlee
4. Anugerah Terindah Yang Pernah Ku Miliku - Sheila On 7
5.
6.
7.

Now, what are with the blanks?

I just let life to fill in them because life is always full of surprise, isn't it?